I am not on a search. If at all, I am on a search, it is the search of my own self. Who am I ? Why do I behave the way I behave, why do I think the way I think?
I have no guru, nor am I looking for one. My teachings come from watching my own actions and observing the intentions behind them. It started long back in 1989, when my daughter was born. One look at her and I was convinced that life cannot be fathomed. A small child turned my life. It was the power of love - her love for me, my love for her. It had no expectation. It was just there, complete in the knowledge that whatever comes, this love will always be there.
She grew up in my house - my only child, with no restrictions, no ambitions, no looking in future, no repenting the past. NO instructions to do this or that...She was there, just to be happy and make us happy. And she made us immensely happy. During those days, I realised that if you love and if you don't expect anything in return, the love multiplies, as it is not selfish anymore. And then I fell in love with life. Each and every person became a subject of love. Loving came easy to me, as was not looking for any return. I am in love with everybody. By the way, she stays close in Pune and comes home whenever she feels like. There is no restriction for her at all in whatever she do....and if you see her, you will be surprised by the sensitivity she has for this world and its lesser citizens. She works for a NGO's programme - as a Programme Manager
And in that raising a child, I realised our conditioning and..... came out of that, a bit slowly, day by day, coming out, all the time...
For me, women became the most lovable human beings on earth. I know the pains, women go thru even in living a normal life. I love women, not as an object, but as my companion, my partner, my strength and everything, in between.
